1, 2, 3, and...

Our kids' ages are 1, 2, 3, and

Baby #4 is a... GIRL!

Due May 11th.

Her hands were in front of her face during the ultrasound.

Staucie is thrilled. She started talking about a baby sister before I was even pregnant. She was so sure and has even picked out a name awhile ago. She says that this baby is HER baby. Parker already has a baby; Bensen is his baby. Staucie wants herself and HER baby to wear matching dresses. When we told her it might be a boy, she got mad. Fortunately, we finally had the ultrasound yesterday and were told that our little baby is a GIRL.

Last night I tried to get a picture of the 3 kids together now that their ages are all in a row.
The photo shoot never goes as I hope.

I don't know what I am thinking.

1................2...............3

I am so excited to be having another little baby. I am excited to have another little girl. I am feeling quite exhausted though. Our kids are 16 months, 18 months and now 16 months apart. I don't know how my mom and others do it. I wouldn't change it though, especially now that I have put in so much work to get them this far. They will forever have playmates and I hope they will always be close.
I was not sure we should be having this baby right now. I feel tired, depressed, and we are struggling financially ever since we made this move to Texas. I have been pregnant, nursing, pregnant, nursing, pregnant, nursing, and now pregnant again over the last 4 1/2 years and have had no break. Although, I did want it this way, Bensen's pregnancy really took a toll on me physically and I haven't felt ready to did it again. I have also been struggling with this move and I am not sure why. I have felt like I am in a slump and have been trying desperately to get out of it for the sake of my children and husband.

Luckily I am in my second trimester now so the hormones have settled down a little bit and I don't feel as exhausted. Though some days I still have a very hard time getting up in the morning or making it through the afternoon.

I prayed and prayed about this 4th baby and felt I shouldn't wait, but felt too exhausted, and a bunch of other things, and did not know what to do. And then without really "trying" I was pregnant again. So I have decided that this baby does need to join our family in May and I am looking forward to it. I just worry that I won't have the physical strength during the 3rd trimester or the emotional and physical strength to do it all over again.

But you never regret having another baby and I know that we are very blessed to have 3 healthy children and another on the way. I thank Heavenly Father for them every day and night and pray that I will be the mother that they need.

I am so excited to hold this baby girl in my arms. There is nothing more precious than a newborn baby. I just wish they didn't grow up so fast.

I am excited to add another silly kid to the bunch and I am grateful for the opportunity I have to raise these children on the earth at this time in my life.

I am also grateful for Daniel. I couldn't ask for a better husband and father of our children. I love him!